I went to daily Mass this morning, like I have so many times before, but today was different. My grandma passed away last night and so walking into Mass today was a little different. She was on my mind and thoughts of her were weighing on my heart. As Mass proceeded I got teary eyed at different parts where the faithful departed were mentioned, but there was a point in Mass where everything changed for me.
Together we stated, “Holy Holy Holy, Lord God of Hosts. Heaven and earth are full of Your glory. Hosanna in the highest. Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest.” At this point in the Mass we are actually entering into the Heavenly liturgy. Our voices join with the angels and Saints praising the Lord. And I realized in that moment that while my Grandma may not be physically here with us anymore she is most present with us at Mass, where Heaven and Earth meet.
I was overwhelmed with a deep peace and knew in that moment that Jesus is taking care of my Grandma now as she took care of us for so long. Mass continued and when it came time to receive communion, I was reminded that when we receive Jesus in the Eucharist we not only join in communion with Him but also with the angels and saints and everyone who has ever received the Eucharist. In that moment when the host touched my tongue I was closer to my Grandma then I ever was even able to be when she was on Earth with us.
While I am still heartbroken that my Grandma is no longer here on Earth with us, my heart is at peace with the knowledge that I can be close to her anytime I want. All I have to do is meet her in the Eucharist, until it comes time for me to join her in the Heavenly liturgy.