I’ve been struggling the last couple weeks, since Lent started really, to feel connected to God. I’ve been so focused on my weaknesses and failings and I haven’t really felt the Lord in my heart as I have so many times. Since Easter I’ve felt myself opening up more and more. But last night, I had some struggles with my ministry and was feeling particularly bad about things in my faith life.
This afternoon I volunteered to sub for one of the priests for part of their holy hour. I spent that time reading through the reflection for today in 33 Days to Morning Glory (I’ve started another path to consecration). Anyway, today’s reflection was from a letter Mother Teresa wrote to the Missionaries of Charity after she read a reflection by John Paul II on Jesus’ thirst. And a particular part stuck out to me which I am going to outline below:
“Never give up this daily intimate contact with Jesus as the real living person – not just the idea. How can we last even one day without hearing Jesus say “I love you” – impossible. Our soul needs that as much as the body needs to breathe.
[Jesus] loves you…He longs for you. He misses you when you don’t come close. He thirsts for you. He loves you always, even when you don’t feel worthy. When not accepted by others, even by yourself sometimes – He is the one who always accepts you. My children, you don’t have to be different for Jesus to love you. Only believe – you are precious to Him. Bring all your suffering to His feet – only open your heart to be loved by Him as you are. He will do the rest.”
Later in the letter she talks about the fact that she wants her sisters to read this in the presence of the Blessed Sacrament so that Jesus can speak to their hearts using Mother’s words. I laughed when I got to that part, because as Mother Teresa expected from her sisters, I also received something from the Lord through her words.
The Lord reminded me of His love for me, His unending, unconditional love. It was something I needed to be reminded of and it pierced my heart. I am so grateful to have been given the gift of feeling His love for me. The Holy Spirit helped me to pray today and it was a blessing beyond measure. True joy only comes from knowing the Lord and receiving His love, and that is what I was blessed to receive today. Jesus always knows when I need a reminder and just how to give it to me.
It was an amazing gift given in a time I would not have normally been in adoration. It just happened that one of the priests asked me to fill in for him, what a God moment. 🙂